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Both were once dedicated to me. One more from me.

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Hello world!

Hm…i wonder if this one shows up on msn too… Idk. so like the past week (or more, I’ve kind of lost track) has sucked. Woo! I’d go into more detail but this is the internet and you never know who’s gonna cyber stalk you.

(over) one year later…

Time really flies….so much has happened since then yet so little….

Right now…I’m missing someone very very much…
If you really want to know what’s going on with me though it’s best to just ask

ugh

…I am so….flustered… It’s funny people tell me I’m so smart when so many others treat me like a complete idiot….ugh….i’m mad at the world and even more mad at myself for being mad at the world over stupid trivial things. There’s so much more going on why am I even thinking about myself? And there’s another thing… I’m always being told I’m too something and it’s always in contradiction of what others say.. I’m too selfish or i think about others too much. I don’t think enough i think too much i need to relax and i need to work harder. I don’t know what the h3ll to do anymore. Anyway back to being selfish…I am so sick of people not seeing ME. When people see me they see my brother’s lil sister or my father’s daughter, not ME. And there’s so much going on with everyone else that I just kind of fall into the background. I let it happen yet what’s so interesting going on with me? NOTHING. I hate this thinking about myself so much…or thinking so much at all…ugh…I’m so mad and sad all at the same time… I don’t know what to do..I don’t know if i should hit something or just break down and cry…I hate FEELING so much. I’ve had too much time on my hands lately…I need to do more so I don’t have to feel so much. It’s easier just feeling nothing at all and if i work more it’s easier to do. But lately they’ve been calling me off work more and I’m not keeping myself busy enough between the days when I do work. I need to get away…just go somewhere else for a little while….but there’s no where to go. Haha I’m dreading yet looking forward to work all at the same time.

ai mei

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re post

while deleting old blogs i deleted one on accident…

Before I let you go
Give me just one more night
To show you just how I feel
I lost all my control
If it takes my whole damn life
I’ll make this up to you

Kind of like the waves
That roll their whole life towards somewhere
Crashing on the shore
It’s blown in by the wind t
Tat carries the clouds to hide
My wish on a fallen star

A different kind of pain
Is someone there to hold you?
Is someone there to take you away from me?
A different kind of pain
Is someone there to hold you?
Is someone there to take you away from me?

I tried to let you go
I wish I could turn back time
And show you just how I feel
I needed you to know
If it takes my whole damn life
I’ll make this up to you

Kind of like the waves
That roll their whole life towards somewhere
Crashing on the shore
It’s blown in by the wind
That carries the clouds to hide
My wish on a fallen star

A different kind of pain
Is someone there to hold you?
Is someone there to take you away from me?
A different kind of pain
Is someone there to hold you?
Is someone there to take you away from me?

Before you let me go away
Before you let me go away
Before you let me go away
Before you let me go
I need you to know

A different kind of pain
Is someone there that to hold you?
Is someone there to take you away from me?
A different kind of pain
Is someone there to hold you?
Is someone there to take you away from me?

A different kind of pain
It’s a different kind of pain
A different kind of pain
It’s a different kind of pain
It’s a different kind of pain

It’s a different kind of pain
It’s a different kind of pain
It’s a different kind of pain
It’s a different kind of pain
It’s a different kind of

Tears From the moon

 

Couldn’t sleep so I went out walking
Thinking about you and hearing us talking
And all the things I should have said
Echo now, inside my head

I feel something falling from the sky
I’m so sad I made the angels cry

Tears from the moon
Fall down like rain
I reach for you
I reach in vain

Tears from the moon, tears from the moon

It just ain’t fair this thing called loving
When one step there and the other feels nothing
I would have done anything for you
I still love you, baby I adore you

All day I keep from falling apart
But at night when the sky gets dark

Tears from the moon
Fall down like rain
I reach for you
I reach in vain

Stop, Stop haunting me
It should be easy
As easy as when you stopped wanting me

Tears from the moon
Fall down like rain
I reach for you
I reach in vain

Tears from the moon
Fall down like rain
but tears from the moon
can’t wash away the pain

Tears from the moon, tears from the moon
Tears from the moon, tears from the moon

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